Blue Eyes...

I'd like to think that most of the time, things turn out for the best, right? What if they don't? I promised myself that I'd come out of the summer being able to say that I had no regrets as I went on to college. I wanted to look back on this summer and smile, because I knew that I had done everything that needed to be done.
So why do I let him get to me? Even when I'm not around him, he's still there, haunting me. Ugh. I wish I could just rip out the part of my brain that thinks about him still.
R. says that I don't try. But what's the point in trying when the ending isn't happy... when the Prince finds a different Princess and the serving girl is always a serving girl. *Sigh* But why am I dwelling on such things? I should just put all of this behind me, because I'm bigger than this petty daydreaming. I should be more... I'm a writer. I have to find the line between fiction and reality and keep myself from falling too far into dreams of what could be.
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Anyway, today was most awesome. I. and I went to the music store and we chatted with the guy who worked there. He ended up giving I. a couple of free guitar picks. I love going there. K. wasn't working, which I was kind of bummed about, because I really like chilling with him and talking music. He's never there when I'm there... maybe he's avoiding me? LoL.
Then we went off to lunch at ECW because I. had never been there and I bought because it was her birthday lunch (since I didn't get out of the house in time enough to get her a present). After eating, we went to the Mall, where we wandered about for a good two hours or so, randomly browsing through DvD's and CD's... I held Nothing Personal (All Time Low's new CD) in my hand... but I had an iTunes Giftcard waiting for me so I could get the Bonus Track version (which by the way is *incredible*). It was awesome. I don't hang out with I. nearly as much as I should.
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So this week is going to be absolutely insane, but in a good way. I need to have more crazy weeks like this. Less chance of me going crazy in the house.
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J. and I played a wicked prank on R. today. We convinced him that we were both crushing on the other and didn't want the other to know about it. You'd think that R. would have gotten it, since J. and I used that *exact* same joke on C. on April Fool's Day... but whatever. ILY Babes :D ♥
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Anyway, I'm exhausted, and I"ve got some Best-Friend-Time coming up tomorrow, so I'd best be super rested. I mean, I am the mean jerk who played pranks on him all night ;)
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Blue Eyes by Ian Walsh