Possibilities

I actually have, like, nothing to complain about during this blog. I'm pretty excited about that. So due to sudden inspiration by G. and his random remark about centaurs, I'm going to explore the possibilities that surround us, and the impact of our decisions on the future.

C. and I were talking today, about what would have happened if she had taken a different path and chosen a different guy years ago. The immense possibilities that opened before us with the simple thought of her dating a different guy... it was crazy. Like... the entire course of our friendship and of ten of my other friendships would have been set way off course. It's strange, how the ripples spread. And now I'm thinking about how every one of the decisions that I make now are going to effect me ten years into the future. Will I change the person that I am? Will I make myself something better, or will I destroy everything I've worked for?
This is such a bad time for me to be thinking about how my actions will change my future. I'm at a huge fork in the road, with hundreds of different paths ahead of me, and it's so hard for me to choose just one. Already I have five different decisions to make, and I'm not sure that I'm going to pick the right one. But it's not like I can see into the future, you know? I can only keep at the pace that I'm going, and I can't turn back and change all of my mistakes anyway.
Which leads me to my next thought... If I *could* go back, would I? I mean, I have so many regrets -too many- but would I change anything if it changed who I was? Probably not... I mean, I've learned a lot from my mistakes, and as great as great as it'd be to erase them from existence... maybe they're necessary...

Anyway, that's just what's been running through my mind. I'm leaving for the beach on Saturday with my girls and I cannot wait to just chill with no worries. ♥

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Possibilities - Teddy Geiger